Fearless Nothing

Here I sit, on the verge of a couple months' good, hard work. I'll be busy! Busy is good. Harness all that kinetic energy ... But. Right now, while things are normal, I like right now, too.

Basically, I'm trying to get profoundly good at resting, so that when the whirlwind hits, I can be profoundly good at that, too. Make sense? I don't know. It's harder than it should be to find the balance between the doing and the not doing. This weekend I dialed it in, though.

There was skateboarding, there was wandering in the woods, there was hang time in the hammock, there was the stacking of many rocks and the creation of a giant inferno, there was camp wine and camp coffee, there was, in fact, tent camping.

Rest-wise, though, I'm most proud of Sunday afternoon, during which we came home and did nothing. We napped! Also, we basked like cats on the sunny deck, staring up into the void of blue—which, after a few minutes, revealed itself not to be a void at all, but instead a lively expanse of bugs and cottonwood fluff and one lost lone balloon flashing the sunlight back down at us from impossibly high.

I can't get the hang of meditating, but this felt a whole lot like that. I hope to stick this moment in my cap of fine, pure moments and maybe pull it out next month when I'm stressed and really freaking need it.